I was reading ‘a graduate school survival guide’ by Ronald T. Azuma, a Computer Science graduate in the states.  I quote him:

“You don’t have to be a genius to do well in graduate school. You must be reasonably intelligent…”

AMEN to that! 🙂 So whoever says ‘PhD?!?!?! wahhhh, you’re so smart!!’ I shall direct them to this website and zoom this sentence into their face.  It’s just that I have chosen research as my career and hence, PhD is necessary, unfortunately for me.

Alright, not to say that I hate research, not to say that I hate working (ok ok, I admit, I prefer not to work), I’m just saying that if I need to have a career in the first place, this 4-year sacrifice of living under the poverty line is necessary.  I just hope people understand and stop viewing me as a psycho (nearly there, no doubt!) wanting to just avoid work and think I’m too smart for anything but this.

Published in: on January 26, 2010 at 12:05 pm  Leave a Comment  


Hi!  Sorry for my hiatus despite me having a LOT of free time on my hands.  I guess I owe you some updates yea?

1. PhD enrolment: OK, this is a pretty complicated situation to explain.  I did receive my letter of offer to enrol *jumps for joy*.  However, after some advice from my supervisor, I’ll be officially enrolling only next semester part-time.  I’ll still start my preparation for my candidacy in Feb so that it’ll be completed by the next round of scholarship applications in October.  Why part-time?  Well, when I do get a scholarship next year (which will be most likely with my candidacy), they will deduct the amount of time I have been officially enrolled prior to the receipt of the scholarship.  Got confused?  Yes, I got confused explaining to you too.

2. House hunting: Our first offer on our first house didn’t get accepted.  Not too bogged down by it, we expected it considering the competition was stiff and we only could afford half of the asking price range.  We’re still house hunting but because my other half is faithfully working in some woop woop land in Oz until next month, we can’t put in any offers until he gets back.

3. Learning: This month has been a huge learning curve – spiritually and experientially.  My patience has grown within this month and my trust and dependence on Him has been forced to deepen due to circumstances surrounding me.  Though things seem to be simple to some, it was pretty tough having several complicated and taxing circumstances happening at the same time to one person.  I guess it’s a good maturing process for me, having to reach almost 3 years shy of my big 30.

Currently, I am enjoying the tennis matches going around Oz.  How amazing that Henin is back and still as good – as if she never left!  She’s like a ballet dancer playing tennis. 🙂

Published in: on January 24, 2010 at 8:15 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Getting our feet wet

After much hunting for a house of our own, we have finally found a place where we can call home for the first 10 years of our lives until we get enough money to tear down the place and develop it into rental properties.  Today is the day we’ll be putting in an offer for the place and wait.  It’s very nerve-wrecking.  Honestly, I don’t know how are we going to go through this another 3 times since we plan to go ahead in property investment.

The bummer is I was told by the seller’s agent that someone will be placing a cash offer tomorrow.  We’re obviously not cash buyers, so that might just kick us down the list of preferred buyer. 😦 But oh well, if it’s for us, God will prevail.  If it’s not, it won’t go through.  We have to be contented with the fact that we’re in a temporary world and that all things here are only temporary, nothing is saved for our life after death.  Learning to have this faith in such a huge matter has been pretty trying.

2010 is only 14 days in and we’re going through many trying times already.  I thank God for that because we are growing and we’re growing for the better in Him.  Amen.

Published in: on January 14, 2010 at 11:12 am  Leave a Comment  
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I’ll finally be getting my enrolment pack – 2 or 3 more working days. A few things in life now are in the limbo. Thus far in the new year, I’ve come to several learned conclusions: 1) house hunting is very tiring and draining physically/mentally/emotionally; 2) I have a secret anxiety problem (some may say that it’s not a secret).

Published in: on January 13, 2010 at 12:42 pm  Leave a Comment  
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New year plans.

After lamenting over the fact that I have just had an epic fail in my adult life (yes, I had many during my childhood and teen days), I stood on my feet and made decisions on where my life will be for 2010.

A few goals will be met this year (boy, am I sounding positive):

  1. losing 10 kgs by end of 2010 – I know this is on everyone’s list but heck, why not mine!
  2. getting a house with my babe.
  3. starting my PhD (part-time at the moment) and getting my scholarship for 2011.
  4. starting my share investment portfolio and if possible, at least one business venture.
  5. reading a book a month.

I think 5 is more than enough.  They all seem ambitious yea?  Unfortunately, that’s a characteristic of me – ambitious.  Sometimes too much but it keeps me going at least.  I had enough of being upset over my losses and failures.  Time to lift my head up high and believe in the supernatural that my God is a God of possibilities.

So, the question remains.  If I do not have a scholarship this year, how will I — live?  Well, fees are exempted for Australian residents (which I proudly am as of July 2009).   I will be doing my PhD part-time: to complete my candidacy (a huge project proposal) and literature review.  While doing that, I’ll be working part-time in tutoring, lab demonstrating and research work.  With a lot of saving gusto, I should be able to — live.

I guess so far, those are my plans!

Published in: on January 5, 2010 at 10:01 pm  Leave a Comment  


I didn’t get the scholarship.

I am disappointed and angry and upset and bewildered. Somehow I’ve gotten over it over my holidays. Now, the decision is to continue despite the results. Will apply again for next year after completing my candidacy part-time this year. I’ve to start seeing things in the supernatural rather than the natural realm. To continue a dream that seems impossible but with Him, it’s possible. 🙂

Published in: on January 4, 2010 at 12:27 pm  Leave a Comment